I just ran the first mile I have run since high school! 26 days ago I hadn't ran farther than a few blocks in more than 12 years. Wow! Really shows you what a little attention and focus can do.
I started on a journey four and a half months ago. I have some REAL goals for this year. Some REAL New Years resolutions. I laid out my goals and some actual, measurable steps in order to obtain these goals. I think that is what is different about this year. I started with the end in mind. I mapped my course. I know where I am going and how I am going to get there.
One of the questions I have had to come face to face with during this journey is why do I hate to run? It is one of the things that I feel would do the most benefit in my journey, but I haven't been able to approach it, until now. Do I hate to run because I USED to hate to run? Or do I still hate to run? Do I hate to run because of all of the excuses I USED to have, or are those excuses still true for me? So far, running is not what I would call enjoyable, but I am facing my fears and hates and accomplishing goals that lead to bigger goals.
I have wanted to complete a triathlon for many years. A friend competed in a triathlon many years ago, and I was secretly very jealous. I was jealous because I thought "I would like to do that, but will never ever be able to". This year I am questioning all of those never evers. I have began training for a triathlon this month and as a few minutes ago, I have registered to complete a half a triathlon in June and a full triathlon in August. Wow! I am going to do this! No turning back now.
Every year for many many years I have set out to loose weight and get healthy. Me and the rest of the country. I never made concrete, attainable goals to get there. So this year I find myself 32 years old and 30 + pounds overweight. I want to lead by example. I want to show my kids what it is to be healthy. I want to demonstrate determination and sheer focus for my patients. I want to be able to say look at what I did this year.
Monday, April 15, 2013
Today could have been a total loss, but I chose to make use of it! I had to come to Loveland early, for something that turned out to only take 15 minutes. It would have been a waste to drive back to Longmont just to turn right back around. I chose, yes chose, to go work out instead. Who is this person who is emerging? I could have used to think of a hundred things I would rather do than work out, but these days it is at the top of my list everyday. I went to a new rec center and went swimming. I enjoyed myself and now that is off the list for today. The question of dinner was next, hmm. Mommy Date! It used to feel so strange going to a restaurant by myself, but now it feels like an opportunity. I enjoy a quiet meal of my choosing. Anywhere I want to go, however long I want to stay. Dating myself is very important. I do so much for everyone and everything else, it is really nice to give back to me. The gift of time is so important, and today I chose to spend it wisely.